Diary of a P.A. Student{'s wife}: here we go!

It's here. Really, truly here...after 8 years of praying, dreaming, planning, moving, schooling, applying, working, trusting, moving again (and again...and again...), applying again, interviewing, waiting, trusting, celebrating....
The A.T. Still University class of 2015 has successfully made it through orientation, collected their medical supplies, had their scrubs embroidered with the school logo and their class specifics; and hits the ground running today at 8 am. Actually, Adam has already hit the ground running...they were told that they would need to be familiar with the material before they get to class, so he's already spent some time this weekend studying.
I know we're as ready for this as we think we can be-but I have a feeling there is no way to actually be prepared for this!
      It doesn't matter, though. We're here. We continue to trust God. We continue to choose joy, to take every thought captive...no small feat, for me. I've been slammed this past month with fears and insecurities I didn't even know were in my heart; but that I'm discovering have roots in the loss of my sister, the loss if Celine, and the start of Adam's P.A. Program. Too much deja vu for this human heart to handle....so it's a process I'm working through, daily. But we're ready. SO glad it's finally here and the anticipating can become reality, whatever that looks like. Adam is so very, very ready-nervous as to how to juggle it all; anticipating what he will learn. He's gotten antsy the past few weeks, wanting to get started. Watching the surgical videos the school has uploaded and explaining to Pax "what all the red stuff is" and that that is what your stomach looks like on the inside ( surgery is amazing...I do not have the gifting Adam does. He's looking forward to that part maybe more than anything, whereas I get squemish at just the thought of cutting open another human being!).  

So it begins...again. Last Monday night there was a potluck at the home of one of the students, open to all families/spouses/significant others as well. We debated for awhile about taking our crew- honestly,we were pretty sure we'd be one of the only couples with kids, especially 3 kids! We were plesantly surprised though-there must have been 6-8 families there. And several couples right around our age with 2 or 3 kids each, just about our kids' age. This is a HUGE answer to prayer,as now there are men that Adam can relate to who are in the same situation as he is...and a couple of women, too. The hostess has FIVE kids and SHE is the one in the program! I joked with a couple of the wives that we needed to start a "wives-of-P.A.-students-with-kids" support group...except, I'm not joking about that. Not even a little bit. I know that all of us will need those relationships at times to help us get thru the next 27 months of craziness. So tomorrow night, we're leaving our kids with some good friends of ours and heading to yet another P.A. School thingy, this one just for adults from all three concurrent classes (class of 2013, 2014, and 2015) and their significant others. Hopefully we can meet up with some of the folks we connected with last week and talk to some of those who are a bit ahead of us. I don't know-can't know-exactly what lies ahead for us in the next 27 months. But I know I'm crazy- proud of Adam and excited for him. I'm trusting God with expectation-not just gritting my teeth to "get through" it. Thank you, thank you to all who have supported us in this adventure and continue to support us. We wouldn't want to (really, we couldn't) do it without you.